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  1. 2008.11.11 file
  2. 2008.10.18 베바
  3. 2008.09.26 while listening the current situation of banking crisis (2)
  4. 2008.09.20 Something about Hot foods
  5. 2008.09.18 It's 18th September 2008. (1)
  6. 2008.08.11 ARTIST's WAY
  7. 2008.07.15 new BLOG (1)
  8. 2008.06.22 11 Days in Korea
  9. 2008.04.08 Another Presentation (1)
  10. 2008.02.07 Schopenhauer's porcupine dilemma
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private2008.09.26 11:34
I was playing spider card game and listening bbc news 24 at the same time on my computer.
The main point of the debate started why it  is happening and how. There were many financial Experts all over the world. ( which is often done by BBC whenever they want to show off they are the only one broadcaster in this world that actually can DO this sort of broadcasting on LIVE. This fact is true, though.) Little bit later, the point shifted to the blame game and finished by sort of admission of western banking system's failure.
Somehow they just want to say this is an economic catastrophy, but the tone of speaking this situation is really doomed. The Westerners specifically Americans and other contries close to them seem to lost their control that they have been hold, or pretended to held for quite a while.  Also they seem to think some other power will replace their position and they persume it will be China. The same day, yesterday, while Americans tried to save their banking system getting consensus in their congress, Chinese shoot the third manned space ship. Watching those two events(!) at the same day on TV gave me enough impression how westerners accept current situation.
The contries in the continent Europe are seemingly less distracted by this situation and even blame Anglo-sexon's greediness habits of spending. They also added an opinion which is some sort of moral malfunction in terms of late consumerism culture is the problem that is mainly driven by Americans.
All those thoughts really get me to the Badiou's thought that I've been reading recently. I understood his idea as an modest approach after modern and post-modern period of bursting human intelligent and aftermath of losing that flamboyant confidence. There is some vague but common feeling whether it's the time to revisit communism in a slightly different sense. Some philosopher, like Badiou, claim themselves as an neo communist or don't deny their thought has a link to communism, could show general guide line, I think, which is less controversal for the westerners rather than accepting oriental communism based on their own (chinese) culture. 

Definitely, it is time that we need some sort of changes both material and mental way for the sake of save our daily life.
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private2008.09.20 12:33

Many westerners are curious about hot food culture in Korea.
Koreans have been brought up the environment that there is no chance to avoid hot taste in daily basis.
I should say even though Koreans are surrounded by these hot foods, some are not keen on them.
Like you, westerners, we, Koreans have various type of people living in our society.
However, Surely, Majority of Koreans love hot food.

Yesterday, someone said that if we've been exposed hot food so long time, we may loose our taste buds when we get older. But they are used to the 'subtle' taste, so they won't. Instantly I thought ' No way, your foods are so blend....that's not subtle. In addition, as you can distinguish the differences among the subtle tastes, we also can tell subtle hot from rubbish hot. They just can't think about any relatively exchangable situation in this world, sometimes.'

Yes, I'm complaining about the ignorance of the westerners on the whole.
I don't like such a hastly generalization, but something triggered me this time.
kind of fed-up situation.

I feel like overhearing these words:' hey you! Chill out!'
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private2008.09.18 16:55
Do you know what are you doing today?
I thought I knew mine but It seems I haven't got anything to do.
Today, I just get lost again feel disoriented.
Maybe It's just because of the pint of Guiness I had for lunch or maybe not....

In fact, since last month, Every happening seems so challenging in various direction.
I still couldn't figure it out when and how all these changes began.
I'm not looking for something to blame or giving it a scarlet letter. I just want to KNOW when and how it started objectively. It began, probabely, from the mement when I realized I couldn't live in the previous house any more or when I signed the contract for a new house after just  two viewings or when I just came back from the trip to Korea, which was the first visit after my grandmother's death.
Or It was just a chain reaction of unlucky thoughts that I've been holding on for a while or I'm just too tired to defend all the negative things for the sake of keeping my faith.

Whatever the reason It was,is, (it's very likely the last reason, though.) my Unlucky incidents happened and I'm living with those results at this moment.
Don't know when It will end, much worse, It would be a just prelude of other followings like a credit crunch situation in here now. I have a big decision ahead, which will effect many other choices I could have in the future whether I live here in UK or back to Korea.

Recently, after all these depressing experience, I have strong realization that I've been missing out every possible form of verbal communication with other human being. I need somebody who really cares me and vice versa. That is really pathetic end of thought process after all these troubles of seeking my true identity and career path to a success, I need just one who can take care of me!!!
No way. I can't finish this journey like this, can I?
There are a lot of behind stories about this feeling, but I won't let them throw on this page right now. Someday, I'll do it. little by little, step by step. For the sake of dusting off some thoughts in my head and leftover emotions in my heart. I think, I should make some room in order to let someone can engage in my life.

The point is that I realized someone is needed. This is terrifyingly scary. 
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private2008.08.11 16:49
It was exactly 10 years ago that  I got this book for the first time.
I knew about 'artist's way' a year before, but I had been hastating to buy it for a year.
Maybe it was a bit expensive book at the time, or I was just too serious to take it .
Anyway, A year later, I bought it and followed the weekly tasks according to the instruction given by this book. It changed me a lot since then. the change was not visible at the time, it was just a small step and I couldn't finish all the tasks in the book which scheduled for 12 weeks. I stoped at 9th week.

The point is that I'm doing the same course again10 years later, I'm facing 5th week now.
I will finish whole course this time and I'm expecting another me after all these time.

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should say some more but I can't.
There is something unusual feeling I've got since the begining of this year.
that is why I start this book again, probabley.
Still, the feeling hasn't shown its intention yet, I'm so curious about this.
just hope It won't be a bad thing.
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private2008.07.15 13:14

Move on to the New Blog for the final dissertation -> here

It need more organized categories for easy access.
I'm gradually moving stuffs from here to the new one.
see you there.

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private2008.06.22 14:30
It's past 11th already.

There is some sort of mixed feeling that makes me remind of the past, which I have tried to forget.
Nevertheless, I realized nothing has been forgotten.
Every places I've been so far bring back all the details of the memories to me.
Few of them made me smile, rest of them made me shed a tear.
I thought I compeletly overcome all of those but I don't yet.

I'm facing another impossible mission.

Forget about unforgetables.
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private2008.04.08 15:19

Just finished another presentation ( or Crit whatever it's called).
I was despair, I never overcome this language barrier.
After 5 years of staying and put myself in various challenges, I'm still not functioning properly.

Main matter, I've realized today, is lack of speaking practice.
Speaking is really a habitual process. Quicker reaction is better, once you make a mistake, need to rephrase asap. Yet, for me, it is really hard to get used to.
After one mistake, I feel less confident, then the second comes along, It became panic mode.
Despite remaining calm outside, my head becomes a jumble land and can't think about any solution about this. so I end up with fragmented sentence without any further explanation. just stop there.
Communication failed.
That is really frustrating moment and the failure feeling drag me into less and less confident situation.

Ah......I'm in total agony of chasing something that I'll never be able to get.

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private2008.02.07 01:46

The phrase hedgehog's dilemma refers to the notion that the closer two beings come to each other, the more likely they are to hurt one another; however if they remain apart, they will each feel the pain of loneliness. This comes from the idea that hedgehogs, with sharp spines on their backs, will hurt each other if they get too close. This is analogous to a relationship between two human beings. If two people come to care about and trust each other, something bad that happens to one of them will hurt the other as well, and dishonesty between the two could cause even greater problems.

 Origin

The concept originates from Arthur Schopenhauer's Parerga und Paralipomena, Volume II, Chapter XXXI, Section 396. In his English translation, E.F.J. Payne translates the German "Stachelschweine" as "porcupines". Schopenhauer's parable describes a number of hedgehogs who need to huddle together for warmth and who struggle to find the distance where they are warm without hurting one another. The hedgehogs have to sacrifice warmth for comfort. The conclusion that Schopenhauer draws is that if someone has enough internal warmth, he or she can avoid society and the giving and receiving of irritation that results from social interaction.

It is also important to note that hedgehogs do not actually hurt each other when they get close, human beings tend to keep themselves more "on guard" in relationships and are more likely to sting one another in the way that a relaxed hedgehog would if spooked. When living in groups, hedgehogs often sleep close to each other.

from wikipedia

 

Just wondering How warm I am................
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